It has been an insane 12 hours.

I am currently at the vet with my pup because he kept throwing up last night and then appeared to have a seizure. We went to the animal ER in the middle of the night - they didn't know what was wrong with him - so they sent us home. But then it happened again this morning as I was getting ready for work and here we are.

So now I am waiting. And hoping and praying my little guy is okay. Harley has been my best friend since the day I got him. He has to be okay. Prayers and well wishes to my little buddy.

Another thing that is on my mind - the terrible shooting that happened in Colorado last night. Horrible. Absolutely horrible. My thoughts go out to the families of the victims - but then my thoughts go to the man responsible. Why was he so unhappy? Why was he so tormented? How was there such a lack of love in his life that led him to do what he did? Or was it a recent tragic event?

I wonder how many people walk the streets in our world that are fighting the urge of doing something crazy. I wonder how many people are that unhappy - that they not only want to end their own lives but the lives of other people - lives of complete strangers.

It is so important that we show love to everyone we meet. We never know their story or situation but we shouldn't have to. We shouldn't have to 'walk a mile in their shoes' to show love and compassion and offer a helping hand.

Life has been so wonderful for me lately. But it hasn't always. I have wanted to die. I have tried to die. Thinking about those days seem like I am thinking of someone else - I am so out of touch with that dark place that used to exist. But I know it exists in a lot of other people for a lot of different reasons. And the only thing I can do about it is offer love, acceptance and compassion. So I will.

I just got a Harley update. He must have gotten into something. He has poison in his system. And internal bleeding. They might keep him overnight. They will update me in a little while.

Everyone should have a dog. That would probably help the people that don't feel love.