I'm not sure if it's a blessing or a curse but I have a bad knee. It might be a blessing because I absolutely hate running and I'm currently training for a half marathon. I complain to myself and Harley every time I head out the door. Running is so boring! My mom tells me that if I keep doing it I'll experience the 'runners high.' I most certainly have not experienced it.
I got up this morning and got ready for my run. I think I had gone about 4 miles before my left knee started to really hurt (my knee is always uncomfortable when I run - but at this point the discomfort turned to ache) and so I started to run a little differently - baby it a bit - and now both knees hurt. Blah. I'm going to the doctor this week. Perhaps they will tell me my running days are over (which I wouldn't mind one bit!)
While I was on my little jog this morning I started thinking about my teen and young adulthood years and compared them to now. I don't know if I've ever had more fun and/or been more relaxed as I am now. Friends talk about their high school and college years with so many good memories and excitement packed behind their stories. Nobody knew it but I hated high school but college was worse. I spent my time wishing I was like all my friends and trying so hard to make sure no one would 'figure me out.' I spent too much time alone on my knees or in the scriptures pleading that God would make me better.
And now?! Well now I am completely comfortable. 100%! I am confident in myself and am sure of Gods love for me. That alone makes life much more enjoyable. It makes the the times I'm alone pleasant and appreciated - instead of a self produced hell. I feel like I am a gift to the world rather than a mistake. I am beyond grateful for my beautiful life. Bad knee and all.
Perhaps I will start to swim.
2 comments:
Swimming would be a good thing for your knee. Anways...I never realized how much you struggled in high school. We sure all loved you and had so much fun with you!!! You were always so much fun to be around. And about the whole running thing...I think you and i have always struggled. "Remember to pump your arms!"
1st you're awesome!
2nd I hate running too.
3rd Try Rollerblading. :) My dog loves running along with me, it's low impact so it doesn't hurt your joints, it's an awesome work out, and it's fun :)
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