Create

I had such a wonderful weekend. After I got word that Harley was okay and that he was able to come home I was able to relax.

Good people are everywhere. And I am continuing to find myself surrounded by them. I believe what they say - light attracts light and dark attracts dark - I believe that I am not only attracting good people in my life but good things in general. In work. In church. In personal growth and development. I can't think of one area in my life where light doesn't seem to be shining.

Which makes me really think about my recent past. What was it that was holding me back or making me act in ways that weren't true to my authentic self? I think about that because I don't want to go back there.

I moved to Seattle close to 5 years ago. I knew 2 people when I moved. I wasn't going to church and I didn't work so I had no clue how to meet anyone. I hadn't come out of the closet yet and didn't know many gay people - but wanted to - so I spent a lot of time at the lesbian bar. And I began to meet a lot of people. Before too long I felt like I knew the majority of the lesbians in Seattle - at least the ones close to my age. I got confused and lost track of Chelsea. I loved that I knew all these new people and became more interested in the number of 'friends' I had rather than the type. It was the quantity vs. quality thing..

I truly believe that you become who you hang out with. You become what you fill your mind and heart with. And in my recent past I've been very unaware of the things/people I have allowed in my life. But I am aware now. Super aware. And I will fill it with goodness.

I love myself. I love my heart and my mind and my soul. And I love God. I will fill my life with the good things He has blessed me with.

After all, life isn't about finding yourself. It is about creating yourself.