24 hours

Geez. It is amazing what 24 hours can do! Yesterday at this time I was down in the dumps but right now I feel great. I feel really really really great. I feel special. I feel loved. I feel worthy. And I feel that way because I am that way. It's a great feeling to know that if weren't yourself, you would want to be friends with yourself. I like me. I would want to be friends with me if I weren't me. I like what I think about when I'm alone. I like how I view the world and people. I like the kind of friend I am. I like my giddiness for kids. And for nature. And adventure. I like that I am a hard worker. I am honest and forgiving and I would do whatever I could to help and love the people around me. I'm thankful to God and his ability and willingness to answer my prayers. He answered my prayers today and let me feel his love by opening my eyes to some of the goodness inside of me. His arms were around me. I feel so much better. I feel blessed. And I'm spending my Friday night on my couch with my dog watching animal planet. And I'm really happy about it.

My life is currently a dream. Or a nightmare. Whatever it is, it doesnt feel real. I tried to have a great day today but I kept learning more and more news that has left my heart and mind paralyzed. I have seen the true colors of people who are so close to me. People that I love. I have seen them do things that I never thought imaginable. And then i have heard them lie about it. To my face. Over and over and over. At first I was mad. Then I felt sad for them. Because they are better then what they are doing. I believe that people have all sorts of sides to them and have the capcity to be great at times and really shitty at other times. I believe it is easy to get lost and forget what's important. It is easy to get off center. I'm so sad about the current circumstances and the people who have hurt me. But it encourages me to stay centered. It encourages me to welcome good and beautiful things into my life. And it encourages me to rely on God- even more than normal.

Sunrise

This morning I woke up thankful for the sunrise an thankful that God created new days. When we have a bad day we have the opportunity to wake up the next day and make it better. And we make it better by being better. I am choosing to be better today. I will not act of of fear today. I will be loving and kind. I will help those who need it. I will be honest and true. I will be thankful and i will be aware of the blessings that are all around me.

Yesterday was a horrible day for me. Today will be better.

Rain

I woke up this morning to the sound of rain pounding on my deck. At first I was bummed because I'm attempting to run in the mornings but then I got excited. I went running. And I got soaked!

When I got home from my run I was drenched but Harley was more drenched then me. I laughed and I think Harley would have laughed too if he was able to.

This morning I am thankful for the rain and for my dog and for newness. I am thankful for my body and for fun experiences. I am thankful for my heart and it's ability to love. I am thankful for the people in my life that make loving so easy. I am thankful for my life and all of the amazing - and not so amazing things that happen. And I'm thankful for my dreams because they are guiding my feet!

And now - get ready - Harley Boy!

New shades

I currently have 8 pairs of sunglasses. These are my new favorite.

A few things that make my happy

Newness

Today is a new day of a new week and a new month. Here's to creating a great July - allowing only good and positive things to be apart of my life.

And here's to summer. I think it is finally starting in Seattle!

knots or butterflies

I feel a little funny.

I have knots in my stomach. Or maybe they are butterflies. I can't tell.

Today is a BIG day at work. I am nervous and excited about the possibilites of what might happen. And if it doesn't happen today, it is in the process of happening.

Living, not just being alive, is wonderful. and full of so many opportunities if we get up and move in the direction of our dream.

Did you know

that you can die from a broken heart. Read this. and lets take better care of our own hearts and the hearts of people we love.

and when your heart hurts surround it with positive and uplifting things and people.

last night i watched as someone's heart was breaking. she was on my couch as she learned the news. she said she felt like she was going to die. and she wasn't being dramatic. in the moment she thought she was and perhaps a part of her did.

i wanted to tell her things would be okay. i believe they will be. eventually. but they aren't right now. so we just cried together. and played with the dog. and then we started to laugh.

things will be okay. things will be better than okay. things will be happy. life will be happy.

but please, everyone, take better care of the hearts in our lives.

30 Years Ago

my favorite person was born and the world became better and more beautiful.

happy birthday, Becka.

i will go on a motorcycle ride to celebrate.